Mandy Moore details 'harrowing' delivery of son August after home birth plans got derailed
During her appearance on the "Informed Pregnancy Podcast" Thursday, Moore described the challenges of giving birth and her "grueling" hours-long labor.
"I'm like diving into this wave as it's coming at me," the "This Is Us" star said of her labor pains. "It was crazy."
Though she and her husband took several classes to prepare for labor, Moore said "all of that just went out the window" and that she was "all about instinct" on her delivery day.
She added that, for her, labor felt like "this acid trip or something."
"I was in my own head, doing my own thing. I could hear people, I could hear suggestions and sometimes agree with them," she said of the experience. "My eyes were closed, and I was on my own. It was my own narrative, my own story, and everybody else was just in the background."
Though Moore had planned to have an unmedicated home birth, she said things "had to shift" once her contractions started. She added that the bumpy 40-minute car ride to the hospital was "awful" and that she was "writhing in pain."
"I still wanted to have an unmedicated birth, but, while I was in the car on the way to the hospital, I was like, 'Taylor, I'm getting an epidural. I don't want you to be mad at me, but that's what's happening when we get to the hospital,'" she recalled.
She added: "I remember moaning like an animal and trying to breathe through getting checked in and then getting into our room and getting settled in."
Despite her wishes for an epidural, Moore said her anesthesiologist forbade it, since her platelet level was dropping exponentially.
"My initial thought was like, 'I do want to do this unmedicated,'" she said. "But once I was in the throes of how painful it was, that wasn't even an option for me."
But Moore said the pain was worth it. After the difficult process, which involved a vacuum device to assist her in pushing out her baby, Moore said she's "never felt this kind of love" and that she "can't wait to do it again."
"It was like the world stopped again, and you're not aware of anything else that's going on," she said. "You just have your baby on you, and I couldn't imagine anything else mattering."
In a February Instagram post Moore announced the birth of her son, along with his full name: August Harrison Goldsmith.
"Gus is here," she wrote. "He was punctual and arrived right on his due date, much to the delight of his parents. We were prepared to fall in love in all sorts of brand new ways, but it goes beyond anything we could have ever imagined."
Moore explained in a follow-up post the next day that the name August signifies the month she and Goldsmith, who was born in August, "found out we were having a boy."
"We always loved the name… so it was settled very early on in our book," Moore captioned an Instagram picture of a gray blanket embroidered with her son's moniker.
Moore, 36, announced her pregnancy on Instagram back in September, posting a picture of Goldsmith caressing her growing baby bump. She wrote, "Baby Boy Goldsmith coming early 2021."
The actress posted regular updates since then, including an Instagram Story in early February about a medical condition complicating her pregnancy.
"Weekly platelet check at the hematologist," Moore wrote. "My platelets have dropped exponentially during pregnancy and it's sadly altered my birth 'plan.' Any other pregnant folks in the same boat??"
In a January interview with Romper, Moore talked about her struggles becoming pregnant. Eventually she consulted a fertility specialist who suspected endometriosis.
“We did ovulation tests, all that stuff," she said. “I was fully prepared to go have surgery and fix my uterus and hopefully get rid of the endometriosis, if it was there. It was nice to have a plan and to know, OK, well, this is why I haven’t been pregnant yet.”
She wound up becoming pregnant shortly before she was set to undergo surgery.
Contributing: Gary Dinges